I am 25 years old , and this question bugs me deeply.
Why am I attracted to lust? Why does it disturb me so much?
After spending a significant amount of time indulging in it, why does it feel like regret?

To understand all this, first we need to understand: What is lust?

Before answering that, I have to say I am a highly addicted dirty novel reader. In fact, addicted.
There hasn’t been a single week in the last 8 years where I haven’t read a dirty story.
I do watch dirty videos sometimes too  although in the last 2,3 years it has significantly reduced, thanks to my reading addiction.

Still, I am revolving around lust  thoughts about lust, fantasies. So what is it?

At this point in my life as 25 year old male , what I understand is:
Beauty is surrender. Lust is aggression.
With lust, you want to go, experience, and come back you don’t want to lose yourself yet you loose yourself without self aware.
But with beauty, you surrender  you lose yourself because beauty captivates.

So by answering what is lust, I have established the nature of lustful thought.

Now, why is it bad?
The thought is not bad but what follows is.
You lose your energy. You lose your capacity to surrender, which makes you lose focus.
By that, I mean: More lust = Less focus.

Now, how to avoid it?

Lord Krishna says: If you want to control your thoughts, control your senses.
I am in line with that statement as well  and I am experiencing it firsthand.

Watching banana and watermelon videos is through your visual senses, and it has a long-lasting effect.
I have experienced it myself.
Most of you remember Mahabharata stories not because you’ve read them but because you’ve consumed them in visual form, whether it’s a movie, reel, series, etc.

So, if you want to avoid lustful thoughts control your senses.
Stop consuming lustful content through any sensory organ it automatically reduces and has a positive effect.
Basically, cut the access to it.

That’s why Aghoris in the Himalayas are so divine hey completely control their senses.

What is 25 year old me doing to control it?
Have I controlled it? Absolutely not.
But what I have done is reduce a lot of visual consumption.

At this point, I am still consuming lustful thoughts in the form of stories.
The beauty of it is when you read, you have to imagine and experience it. And my dumb brain is definitely not holding on to any stories  although impactful ones do remain.

Will I overcome lustful thoughts? Forever? Or will I think of it only on a few occasions?
Time has to answer.
At this point, I still possess lustful thoughts  but the volume of thoughts has reduced year by year in the last 2,3 years.
We have to see what the future holds for us.

P.S.: Married couples don’t hold lust for their spouses  they surrender. That’s the beauty, because they have a mixture of love.
Innately, people assume it is the same as lust but it’s not.