Nam tande kelsa madthidu BMTC alli ,
Nange ee level sharpness ide andre , definely his genes , Nan life alli ene blessings idru avru kotiro bikshe
Nange ond ond sari ansuthe , why luck is favouring me , I feel nam tande sathmele adu jasti ne agide Avru yello cosmos alli , ninthkondu ashirvada madthirbeku
Avru yavglu helthidu onde mathu , ninge “en ansutho aduna chase madu” antha
Buddi idre badkihya antha helthidru Naana yavaglu “jaanu” jaanu antha karthidru , nange aa hesru thumba ista agthithu
Idu vargu nange nam appana jothe meaning full conversation madide nenpilla , ondu topic baggenu serious agi mathadilla , nam tande hidi jeevna poora madid sala ne tirskondu bandru
yavaglo 10th alli idaga BMTC quatrs sutha atdskkndu hodidu nenpu , avathu nandu 10th fare well bere Nam appa heavy drinking person , 24/7 nashe le irthare ,adeno senhitara sahavashavo , illa kshnika sukke sothidro nange gothilla but thumba drinking person Yav level ge andre naavu 6th alli idaga almost kidny failure stage ge hogithu..
Nam appa nadidre full road alli nodavru , he is huge and very charming guy mostly ade genes nangu ide Sumaru nam tande sayivuva ondu 40 dina gala munche , depot dalli kelsa madbekadre kudi case barskondidru avaga dc final warning madi , ee sari kelsa dinda tegde tegithini antha helidru anthe
Adanu serious agi tagondru , nange en ashcharya andre nam tande sumaru sari dismiss agidare sakasthu hana kalkond idare , andru avaga ildare iro baya ivaga yaake antha
Nam tande helthidu en andre , sathre duddu baruthe antha bahusha Inna 2 varshadalli yest dudu bantho astu nan salary aguthe …nenskondre mansige thumba novu aguthe
But he was feeling him self burden thumba physically kugidru , adu yar kannu bitho enu thumba kugidru …aane tara idid manushya sanna agidru Heege 40 dinda dina kone hathu dina bandaga , thumba altha idru naanu helthane ide
It’s okay dud hodre mathe sampadne madbhodu , yaake tension agthiya antha
Adeno gothilla thumba mansige bejar agithu ansuthe , sayo ond Dina munche
Nange kardi kiss kodoke bandru naanu neenu heavy drinking madiya beda andide , chee….yestu regret ide andre I wish I would have taken kiss from him
But nanna nodagella kiss kodtha idru , naanu sayo dinda hinda ratri maneli irlila
BMSIT college fest ge hogide allinda Nandi hills hogana ankonde
But vidi aata , avathu munjane nange ond phone baruthe around 7
Police station inda ee tara agide antha
Naan first nam atte maga madu ge phone madthini alli amma mathe tangi ibre idare pls bega hogu antha , naanu police station ge hogo astralli ond hour agithu
Naan bandmele ne nan munde ne amma tangi elru.relativrs munde nam tande na torsidu , adu nodaga
Naanu thumba vulnerable agide , mostly naanu astu idu vargu atthe illa, non stop whole day , body sudovargu attidini
Adeno , astu attached irlila but tande anno mamthe avru torsiro preeti , yella ottige nenpu banthu ansuthe ,
But yello 2-3 days admele , nange ansuthu he was feeling burden to be alive , yaake andre sathaga naanu nam tangi nam tayi bitre
Athavre illa , nam ajji swalpa atru aste
Nam chikpadiru muka kooda nodilla,nange thumba bejar aythu
He was not respected , he was not treated well , he was not feeling he is respectable man
Nange anthu aa gatane inda ache baroke 3-4 months aythu , it was not avoid
Nam tayi nam tangi na nodoke agtha irlila , ivaga nange enu astondu nenpu kadalla
But deep regrets ide , swalpa healthy man to man talk madoke agilla
I guess aa adrusta nange illa bari avra ashirvada asten
But nange hinde du yella nenpu baruthe, bahusha nam tayi irlila andidre naanu baudktiro badku badkoke agtha irlila , she is the solo earner.
Nam tande family na astondu take care madtha irlila
Otnalli , as a son as a man who understand another man pain
I felt deep pain and relieved he has no longer go through pain in real world
It’s just hurts , to see father not valued any where , literally namna swantha sambdikru kooda yellu invite madtha irlila
But ene heli , sucide was not option
Naanu literally ond dinda munche helide , adu yeste dudu bandru nange beda neenu imp nange antha
He dint listen , I guess sometimes not speaking is not good.
Naave mathadsbeku mansu galana artha madkobeku
Nam father expeire adaga , naanu bosch ge one week hogrilila , but naan yaru kelidru father sucide antha ne helodu , kelvondu kade concious agi slip agi bidru anthini because avru namge astu parichaya irolla , avaga sympathy beda nange adike
But kelsake vapas hodaga , I was not myself thumba bejar agithu
Yelru mane katshtare adu madthare , avr appan jothe gadi li odthare
I guess nange aa adrusta ilve illa , heege idaga nam manager apoorva antha
Kardu avr tane nu sucide madkondidru antha heli , avr story heli she correlated
Amele she have beautiful points , nange mansu hagura aythu
I was back, but aa void antha enu ansiilla mostly naanu modlianu nam.tande jothe detached ee
Elrunu nam tande inda nanna gurthsavru but naavu engineer anno karnake elru nenpu itkolvru , I guess identity was not attached , so haagagi attachment astu irlila
But ivaglu , nam chikappandir mele sakth kopa ide adralli nam eradne chikappa , swantha anna na face kooda nodilla
Ambulance door tegdi namge hara koti , hange door close madda aa kshana naanu mariyode illa
Revenge antha enu illa ,but avru nange lekka illa i don’t consider them as known
Aste
Otnalli nam tande illa annodu avaga avaga bejar aguthe horethu , bere enu illa.
I think that’s when I realised we are not so important , own family only doesn’t rember us daily antha
At the end , we have to really love ourself and do justice for loved ones aste
Which my father dint do.
Nam tandi sathaga , next 2-3 months fullu blank enu artha agthirlila
Enu arivu irlila adu eno , avr absence astu feel agthirlila but nam tayi na nodagella thumba alubarthithu ,
I think family friends collegues yaru respect madilla andre man commits suicide aste
